Thursday, June 12, 2008

Memories


As I stood over my kitchen sink, I looked out my kitchen window. I always like to gaze out at my garden in hopes of seeing some gift from My LORD (e.g. a butterfly, a hummingbird, that beautiful blue bird, etc.). This time, however, I happened to see a very joyous family decorating their family vehicle. As the writing took place I realized that they were having a graduation. The colors looked familiar and so they were. Orange and Black, Chaffey High School’s colors. My mind raced back to 2003…

This was the day, 5 years ago, that we (my hubby and I) had many emotions going on in our hearts. Much heartache, many doubts, many tears. We didn’t know how to plan for this day. Ours son’s graduation was up in the air – we didn’t know what would happen.

You see, our son, had decided to explore the world. He was kicking against all that we stood for. I can tell you that our hearts broke, then they broke again, then they broke again. One dear friend of mine said, “does your heart ever feel shattered, only to shatter some more?” Yes! Just when we thought our heart could break no more, the little pieces would shatter some more. OUR hope and dreams were being broken one-by-one. I will tell you though, that this was a time when we developed, what some call “camel’s knees”. We were on our faces, continually for our son. The LORD shared with us that, yes, OUR hopes and dreams were shattered, but NOT HIS PLAN for our Son. HIS PLAN will continue in spite of it all – we believe this with all our heart. HIS ways are not ours, nor are HIS thoughts our thoughts. Praise be to God! The darker it gets the more HIS LIGHT shines forth – Hallelujah!!!

By God’s grace our son did graduate – God’s gift and mercy to all of us (thank you Jesus!)

I know that many celebrate this time, while others hurt so deeply. Yet, it all has a purpose. Nothing is wasted in God’s economy – what an incredible God we serve.

Funny how different events trigger so many memories? In fact, my hubby, who stood with me, simply said, “78 to 08, humm – 30 years.” (He graduated in 1978 from the same school our son graduated from).

Great are the mysteries of Our God. Thankfully all we have to think about is TODAY, cause tomorrow ain’t promised to no one.

1 comment:

Julie said...

Leti,
Thank you for visiting my blog again. I am always blessed to have people stop by. I love when Papa (the name I call God...you can read about why on my blog) brings something special outside my window to gaze at. He brought a dove one time to perch on my bannister outside. It peered into the window at us sitting around the room reading the story of Christ's resurrection. It was as if Papa was saying, "My Spirit is here". I also love how He brings butterflies to my gaze. He knows how much they speak to me of His love.

Thanks for sharing this moment of pain and triumph. It's hard to watch our kids go and make their own ways isn't it? My daughter had a stint where she pulled away from following God...and He pursued her back. I am grateful. Currently she is on a missions trip overseas... He has done great things.

Hugs,
Julie