Jose, Joseph and Laura
Papa holding his little boy - precious!!!Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
Going Through Mom's Things
I finally got the chance, or should I say the courage, to go through Mom’s things. After Mom went to heaven, I kind of shoved everything in drawers or into the closet. However, for some reason, I have not been allowed to linger in this place for too long. Soon after, I had to deal with another good-bye, and then there was the saying good-bye to our son as he left to Missouri. I had, however, managed to ignore the piles of Mom’s things that had to be sorted through.
The day came and I sat, alone in the room…alone in the house.
“O, look, Mom’s blood-sugar checker (not the correct term, I know).”…I remember when the doctor first asked me to check her sugar. Mom was so upset because she said, “I’m not diabetic! Why do you have to do that?” For a while, almost every time I went to check her sugar, she would always say that. After some time, I think, she knew I was going to do it anyway, so she would simply stick out her hand.
“Mom’s little blankets.” She loved little blankets. She had seen some plush blankets announced at Anna’s and she kept hinting until I got her a small and large blanket…she loved her blankets. One day she saw an orange and black blanket that I had bought for my son when he was in high school. She hinted and hinted until I washed it and gave it to her - she just loved it! She used to say it was so warm. I really think she liked the colors. Mom loved bright colors.
“Here is her clothes, her shampoo, her…, her…, her…, her stuff.”
Is that how it is? Some one’s stuff is put away. Is boxed up. Is…
Is this what happens?
No wonder Mom had such a difficult time going through Dad’s things. In fact, I don’t think she ever managed to go through them. Here and there she gave some stuff away and some stuff disappeared (total other story), but for the most part Dad’s things simply stayed where he left them.
Mom, I KNOW, is in a better place. She has no more physical suffering. She is finally whole - for this I am eternally grateful. And, it does help on some of those difficult days. But, I must admit there are days that even this can’t take the pain away.
The day came and I sat, alone in the room…alone in the house.
“O, look, Mom’s blood-sugar checker (not the correct term, I know).”…I remember when the doctor first asked me to check her sugar. Mom was so upset because she said, “I’m not diabetic! Why do you have to do that?” For a while, almost every time I went to check her sugar, she would always say that. After some time, I think, she knew I was going to do it anyway, so she would simply stick out her hand.
“Mom’s little blankets.” She loved little blankets. She had seen some plush blankets announced at Anna’s and she kept hinting until I got her a small and large blanket…she loved her blankets. One day she saw an orange and black blanket that I had bought for my son when he was in high school. She hinted and hinted until I washed it and gave it to her - she just loved it! She used to say it was so warm. I really think she liked the colors. Mom loved bright colors.
“Here is her clothes, her shampoo, her…, her…, her…, her stuff.”
Is that how it is? Some one’s stuff is put away. Is boxed up. Is…
Is this what happens?
No wonder Mom had such a difficult time going through Dad’s things. In fact, I don’t think she ever managed to go through them. Here and there she gave some stuff away and some stuff disappeared (total other story), but for the most part Dad’s things simply stayed where he left them.
Mom, I KNOW, is in a better place. She has no more physical suffering. She is finally whole - for this I am eternally grateful. And, it does help on some of those difficult days. But, I must admit there are days that even this can’t take the pain away.
Romans 8:32 - He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up
for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?
“…With Jesus I know I can make it, with Jesus I know I can
stand…My life is in His (very able, capable) hands…”
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Pray for My Son
It is official, my son has enlisted in the National Guard. Yesterday he came home and showed me his Military I.D. Card - yes, I cried and held him tight. I guess I never thought...
Please continue to pray for my son - in a few days he will be leaving for Missouri. Keep me in prayer - my heart aches and rejoices at the same time. Keep my husband in prayer - his Papa's heart...
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Date with Bek
Bek and I on a date. Pho Noodles for lunch and Baskin Robbins for dessert - yumm!
We had a wonderful time.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
I've been going through some pictures that I brought back from Mexico. Ran into this one...tears!!!This is Mom, Me, and Sister. Two women who poured their life into me and who are now gone.
Many, many regrets. Unending tears...
This grief thing has taken me by a storm.
I will praise MY JESUS in the storm - Hallelujah!!!
Monday, January 4, 2010
One Month...
One month ago my Mother went to heaven. That day I, along with my family, entered into a journey that will take a life time to deal with. As one of my nieces said, "I am remembering all those that have gone on before us."Today - my husband is back to work, my daughter is back in Pennsylvania and Mom is in heaven. I wish I could say that the changes end there, but only God knows what lies ahead.
Praise God that He only asks me to deal with TODAY! And, even with today, HE is ever present...a very real help, comfort, and shelter.
I am clinging to His Word:
YOU have turned for me my mourning into dancing; YOU have put
off my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness, to the end that my glory may sing praise to YOU and not be silent. O LORD my God, I will give thanks to YOU forever. Psalm 30:11-12
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Good-bye 2009...
Good-bye 2009…
This year started out with a bang. January, my father-in-law went to heaven. February, my mother-in-law went to heaven. Summer, my daughter had to have surgery because of a lump on her breast. December, my mother went to heaven.
In all of this (and more) God has been faithful and remains faithful. God’s promises have been faithful and true. God’s Word has been the light in the darkness. God’s character has been tested and proven.
I have sense the presence of the Living God in a way I have never know it before. I have literally sense God carrying me and giving me enough strength for the next step. God’s leading and guiding has been so real that there are times when I have to sit in awe of HIM, filled with thankfulness and love for My Saviour Jesus Christ.
My God is a Faithful Saviour, Loving Father, an Incredible Comforter. I love Him so much.
2009 was a good year, because all that happened was HIS doing and for HIS glory. Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him. HIS plans for me are to give me a future and a hope, not to harm me.
What will 2010 bring? Only God knows. And, this I know, my God is a faithful God, one that can be trusted. So, I will give thanks to Him for 2009 and I will look forward to what He will bring in 2010.
This year started out with a bang. January, my father-in-law went to heaven. February, my mother-in-law went to heaven. Summer, my daughter had to have surgery because of a lump on her breast. December, my mother went to heaven.
In all of this (and more) God has been faithful and remains faithful. God’s promises have been faithful and true. God’s Word has been the light in the darkness. God’s character has been tested and proven.
I have sense the presence of the Living God in a way I have never know it before. I have literally sense God carrying me and giving me enough strength for the next step. God’s leading and guiding has been so real that there are times when I have to sit in awe of HIM, filled with thankfulness and love for My Saviour Jesus Christ.
My God is a Faithful Saviour, Loving Father, an Incredible Comforter. I love Him so much.
2009 was a good year, because all that happened was HIS doing and for HIS glory. Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him. HIS plans for me are to give me a future and a hope, not to harm me.
What will 2010 bring? Only God knows. And, this I know, my God is a faithful God, one that can be trusted. So, I will give thanks to Him for 2009 and I will look forward to what He will bring in 2010.
Romans 8:32 - He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?
“…With Jesus I know I can make it, with Jesus I know I can stand…My life is in His (very able, capable) hands…”
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Mom's Funeral
My Mom's request was that she be buried in Mexico, next to her loved ones. God allowed me to fulfill this last request. Mom would have been proud of us - we were all together (something that hasn't happened in a while), and we behaved.
Finality is so difficult. I am so thankful for the HOPE that is in my heart, a HOPE that doesn't disappoint, because it is anchored in Jesus Christ. Jesus has conquered death, and because of this I KNOW that I will see Mom again.
I will see you soon Mom.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Discovering Joy Coffee at Harvest
Discovering Joy Coffee at Harvest
This morning I had the privilege of spending the morning with my two nieces. What a joy to sit with them hearing worship and listening to God's Word. I knew that the LORD had something for us. So much has happened in the last few days that this time of sitting and receiving was so refreshing. God gave us each a golden nugget of truth to walk away with and to sustain us for the task(s) ahead.
Friday, December 4, 2009
Mom is now HOME
My Mother entered into eternity on December 4th, 2009. She has no more pain now.
The LORD has answered and continues to answer prayer. She was at home surrounded by her loved ones.
Thank you LORD for your faithfulness.
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